The Love Letter of a Teenage Gay Boy:
Hey hey.
So, read this in it’s entirety before you reply or don’t reply or whatever you do, yeah.
I’m not entirely sure where to start, tbh. I guess I should just.. say it. I’m not sure if you’ve suspected and I suspect you have suspected but I don’t know, so whatever.
I have had a thing for you since Grade 5. Bam, right there. 6 whole years. Now - I know you’re probably straight. It’s just it’s been weighing me down for 6 fuuuuuucking years and I needed to get it out there. This is either going to go somewhat badly or somewhat well and I’m fine with either way.
If you’re straight, that’s fine. I expected that - it’s not a big deal to me. I would just like you to tell me flat out so I can get some closure and I can just move on. I was gonna keep my mouth shut because I didn’t want to take the risk but it seriously has been gnawing at me so badly lately.
I feel kind of selfish for telling you, but .. I don’t know. I guess there’s this tiny sliver of something in me that is probably way over analyzing some of the things you do and my mind is turning friendly gestures into hints. In the off chance that you.. you know, I know you couldn’t go public with that information but I.. yeah.
It’s possible you’re confused as to why I would harbor any feelings for you and I guess it’s pretty plain to me. You were the only guy who didn’t try his best to break off every connection you had with me once I started becoming “different”. In fact, I distanced myself from you because I didn’t want to tell you something I’d regret and I was kind of mean in the process. I’ve apologized for that before and I’ll do it again. On top of that, as I remember, we both did little things to get eachother to “like” eachother more when we were really young. If I recall correctly you began playing WoW because you wanted me to like you more, but then you found it fun and yadda yadda yadda.. I don’t know. The list goes on and on.
I don’t want to ramble on about this too much so I’ll guess I’ll conclude. I expect you’re straight, but if you’re not, God just tell me. And if you are, tell me that too because either way it’s gonna help me out. I’m sorry this is kind of a selfish message but, again, I needed the weight gone from 6 years.. I’m proud to have called you friend and I’m proud you’ll be serving this country as a soldier - If we break ties here it will all be fine. We’ll just mooooove on.
Lastly, my facebook inbox has been quite messed up as of late so just.. text me the answer if I don’t reply to your reply. And again, after reading this if the outcome is what I expect I don’t expect you to continue speaking with me. Whatever you’re comfortable with, dude.
